New Stage in Life

It has been a while since I last posted. Everyday walking through the city, I think of many different blogs I could be writing and I hope that I can start writing them again. I am now working for a nonprofit organization in the most noticable building in NYC. It has been slightly annoying getting used to the commute, but I think it will fit into my life soon enough. NYC is so fast paced and everyone always has to one up you. Walking by someone on the street there is always someone going faster. Riding in the train there is always someone who has to get off before you. Going up the elevator there is always someone who doesn't hold the door. Whew.... I miss Ohio!

It's Done

Wow can't believe my time in Virginia has come to an end. I will leave here a different person who is more knowledgeable in things of life. I have witnessed the rawness of those who are grieving and seen their pain first hand. I can't relate to them anymore than when I first got here, but I can be more understanding and sensitive. On another not completely unrelated to that last thought... I wonder how many times in life I'm going to be let down by people? How many times am I going to think one thing and then get treated another? Life is life, no one is perfect, no one can really live up to our expectations I guess. It just kinda sucks to learn that over and over again. I guess we get through this toil of life the best we can and keep ours eyes toward God who will never let us down. Man people are hard to understand sometimes, hard to grasp.

Gone in a Second

So the olympics just started this weekend and I have been watching them non stop. Yes I know non stop is a bit much, but I have been snowed in for two days and there is nothing else to do. This is the first year where I have really thought about what these athletes go through. They train and the train and all of their hard work can go down the tube in a blink of an eye. A skier can fall, a skater can trip, a ski boarder can call on their face. That second can be the difference between win or loose, gold or bronze, personal victory or failure. I really feel for those who have come so far with such a goal.

Waiting

Waiting is not fun... Whenever I auditioned for stuff I hated to wait and find out. When the call came I was always shaking in my boots. Well no calls have come for me yet and I'm just humming a merry song as I wait. If you want to learn a lot about life... Listen to those who are hurting over a death! It will really put the whole "life is a gift" thing in perspective. I must admit I have had moments of freaking out dreading those who will die in my future. Unfortunately there is no getting around it, but fortunately I will hopefully be seeing most people again in heaven. It makes me want to enjoy my time here with people much more than I ever did!

I am ashamed

Gosh it has been a while since I last wrote on my blog. Hopefully I can start updating more often again. It was loads easier when I was by a computer all day. :) So my life has been taking unusal twists and turns lately. I just moved down to VA for a few weeks to help my aunt out with her ministry. I have only been here a week, but I feel like I have grown so much! I had to drive down by myself and that was a first for me. I also have been sitting in some grief sessions (alot of what the ministry does) and have really gotten to examine what people go through with loss. A couple of days ago I went to North Carolina for an interview with an arts organization. I am on my way to doing what I want... I think. Ok let's just face it, I'm not exactly sure what I want. WHO IS!? I just got my hair cut today and I have been hyperventilating ever since.

Back to the Beginning

So I find myself back where I started right after college. The only differences are that I am almost 24, have become a better driver, have an amazing boyfriend, have gotten corporate experience and am much closer to God. I don't know why when all of those things are wonderful I have to feel so blah... like I have no clue what I am going to do with myself. I thought you were only supposed to feel that once in your life, but I am now realizing that this IS life. I am starting my job search today and feel overwhelmed. I don't know which way to turn and what to look for. Should I look all over? Should I stay in CT? Should I look for a well paying job or just pursue my passions? What are my passions!? AH

King Kong and Old Yeller

I can't believe Christmas is over and done!
It is hard to believe that another year is almost done. This morning it was kinda hitting me that I am unemployed and that I have been out in the corporate world for more than a year... geesh. Anywho I want to write about a movie I saw yesterday. I am not at all familiar with King Kong and since the new version was said to be very good I decided to give it a go. I hate seeing animals get hurt and as I left the theater I felt that same sadness as I did with Old Yeller. I will never see either of these movies again in my life! If I had been alone at home watching King Kong I would have been sobbing. They made this beast so real that it broke my heart to watch him being killed. AH! Ofcourse I had to go see this movie on Christmas... To give the film credit it was done wonderfully.