Friendships go on?

I guess I should just except disappointment as a part of life. Excepting it is better than being surprised by it every time it happens. I’m not saying that I am going to wake up every day and think "oh today I’m going to be disappointed" that would be sad… I mean I just don’t want to be so stoked up about certain things. I’m thinking about all of this because I am a little disappointed in my friends. You may think what I am feeling is dumb and stupid, but these feelings are real and I just want to share. College was one of the best experiences of my life and I made friends that I thought would last a lifetime. Of course the friendships did go back and forth up and down. Like freshman year we were trying to meet as many people as we could… making new friends at every turn. I was in an all freshman dorm and we were all about unity. My future roommate, Becky, and me became good friends and we both made good friends that we ended up sharing all of college. Sophomore year was when we developed those close knit friends that we ate meals with, hung out with on weekends, and went to each other’s houses for short breaks. I wouldn’t say that we were a "group" because whenever there was a new face around we would have them join us in our newest crazy endeavor. I remember one day when two of our friends were competing in the school Olympics and a whole group of about 12 came to cheer them on… someone said to me "it is so awesome how you have so many supportive friends." After she said that I looked around and marveled at how true that statement was. Whether I was in a play, Becky was climbing the wall, Dan was running cross country, Dave was playing in his band, Jon was doing some crazy "crap" or Jason was enlightening us with his deep thoughts… we were always there. I believe that second year of college held a network of friends who were there for each other through and through. Junior year was different than all of the rest. We had friends coming "in and out" of the network. Some moved, some changed, some became closer, some further apart. People started to get boyfriends and girlfriends and we started to encounter issues with each other that we had to work through. But through it all we remained friends and still hung out. I admit that Senior year was the year that I felt most "out of it" but that didn’t prevent me from running over to the boy’s apartment with a crazy story to tell. Graduation came, we had so many good bye parties I was about to think we would never leave! ;-) We all knew that we would become different people once we walked off of the campus for the final time. We were all in for a rude awaking of what the "real world" really held. The one thing I held onto was the knowledge that we would all probably get married someday in the future so we would hopefully see eachother than. The "wedding reunions" I happily called them. Going to the Huguenin wedding was awesome because there were some of the friends from college that I had become so close to over the years. Some were missing, but hanging out with those that were there made me truly miss what we had. My beloved Becky is getting married in three weeks. It is hard to imagine that this part of her life is already here. All of those memories that we made together through college will never be replayed. This is going to be one of the most important days of her life and I know that, if it were me, I would want my dearest friends to be there. Everyone is in a new place in their lives now, but that shouldn’t be a reason not to be there to cherish this precious time. I am annoyed how everything in life costs money, and I know people have to live their lives that they have now. It is still sad that this special day has to be missed by many. I now know nothing will ever be the same, everyone has branched out to different states and have basically begun again. I don’t understand why this has to be the end of those four precious years we spent together. It didn’t help that everyone is getting married in the same summer! ;-) Ha ha jk… go Becky P, me, Dave and Jason. Woot to the singles!